It's as he turns that the lighting changes, from warm and inviting to a cold, bleak, unearthly blue. The windows are shattered, the pews overturned, and a chill wind howls down through the dilapidated ceiling. The air smells like blood, metal, and ash. And on the altar, laid out like a feast for flies, is the beaten, bloody body of Harry Powell.
At least, it seems like just his body at first. He's being picked apart by what appear to be blue, slate-skinned imps, which are ravenously and gleefully stuffing chunks of him into their toothy maws. After a moment, a blue fire ignites behind his eyes, and he begins screaming, alive and awake but seemingly incapable of moving otherwise.
The church smashes itself apart. It’s a howling and raging wind that Mulcahy flinches and cries out from; in a second he will feel a sense of divine wrath in such an immediate and drastic, terrible change; but in this moment, what he thinks of first is the war. Shells, iron, and a bus full of wounded.
And there is a wounded man.
He doesn’t understand what’s going on, but he’s convinced that either God or some other divine power has laid this purgatory on Powell, freezing him in this moment of most humiliation and at the same time ossifying Mulcahy’s most shameful act–he stares in horror at the imps, too familiar with the smell of blood and tear of sinew. And he claps his hands over his ears when he screams.
This is his shame: that he hesitates. That for a moment, two, three moments, he considers going away.
It isn’t guilt that moves him forward. It is deeply rooted instinct. Not a jerk reaction like a flinch or a scream, but a behavior as inherent to him as shepherding is for the working dog. Mulcahy rushes in to help and attempt to beat the imps away. “Get off of him! Off, all of you! Off!”
Any relief he could have had at Powell's being alive is snuffed immediately. Still--a M*A*S*H doesn't refuse to treat someone just because they're the worst person you've ever met. They treated the enemy, too. It's not their lot to cast judgement like that. Only to heal.
"Keep him out of this or I'll lay you out again, and you won't like how I do it!" he snaps, as he gently tries to ease his arms around the man to carry him from the altar. "You know as well as I do that it's only the luck of Providence that of all people to end up here, it should be me."
“I’d… rather die than accept the likes of you. There is no redemption for the sinner who attributes the works of God to Satan. The spawn of Sodom and all those who are sexually unclean shall not inherit- ggk!” He’s suddenly cut off as one of the imps suddenly leaps upon him and tears out his throat, holding the grisly trophy with an air of triumph, before the others start scrabbling to steal it.
“Nasty little things, Banekin,” comes a voice from behind Mulcahy.
Mulcahy reels back in horror. It is the grace of having seen such slaughter before that he does not drop Powell outright, but it's a near thing. Instead, Mulcahy makes his peace with the massive splatter of viscera now staining his front, and sets the corpse down, albeit ungracefully.
He steps forward to start shooing them from the rest of the corpse when a voice issues from behind him. Blood freezing, he whirls around to see who's caught him here.
Mulcahy would back away, but two issues: first, he’d bump back up against Powell’s corpse. Second, he’d show fear.
It’s just Theodore. He knows and likes the man, and yet—and yet something feels so deeply wrong. Obviously there’s the inexplicable presence of Powell and these imps and the church and the fire, but there’s—there’s horrible and impossible such that either he’s been beset by devils or he’s dreaming… and then there’s another underlayer, a mysterious off-ness that he doesn’t understand. And he can’t stand it.
“Because what he wants is denying himself his peace,” Mulcahy tries sternly. “And no man should have to suffer forever like that. How are you here?”
"Of course not. But it may be best that you know what you're up against."
He gestures to the implike things, which are keeping their distance now, seeming uncertain in their actions.
"Banekin hail from a realm that, at its core, is Domination-as-Consuming, Hope-Crushing, Forever-Chained. Daedra are... how might you say? Embodiments. His own hatred, his constant companions, are quite literally eating him alive when he no longer has what he needs to lord over his surroundings. That's quite typical, of those that seek out ol' Molag for power. The promise of being powerless under someone else, so long as you can dominate everything else in turn, is quite appealing when you don't think too much about it. After all, most mortals realize they're inevitably under someone else's heel- isn't it just a matter of survival and practicality, to make sure you end up as close to the top of the heap as possible?"
This is reaching into a kind of alien mysticism that 2 would never once have bothered with. In all those years he was never so imaginative, and if there was any kind of mystic or occultism he bothered Mulcahy with, it was his own.
That stinging iciness in his nerves doesn't go away, but this... is different. It's the shallowest compensation.
...
"How are you here?" He wants to know what kind of game he's expected to play before he plays it. This, before he answers any questions, before the man tries to pull a confessional from someone whose most terrible mistake he can clearly already see. "For that matter, what is here?
“We’re somewhere, I believe, between a dream, a desire, an an appeal for help. And I… well, I suspect I’m here because I have a tendency to promote change, for better or worse. And I’d rather it be for the better in your case, Father. I do like you.”
He walks over to a nearby candle, snuffing out the icy flame and seeming to conjure up a new one that glows with a proper warmth. The orange hues of comfort and safety begin to radiate from it, but there’s a distortedness to it. The edges of the world are too sharp, too deep, like heavy strokes of an oil painting, and the colors are a little too bright.
“You don’t trust any of this,” he remarks, tone neutral, as he scoops up a piece of broken stained glass. It turns into a butterfly and takes to the air.
“Probably best that you don’t. I had a dream recently that kept folding in and in and in on itself, and by the morning I had folded myself into such a tight knot.”
"Sometimes they're wonderful. More vibrant than anything I can describe. Sometimes, they're torturous, designed to break me. I break quite often. It's part of my nature."
He walks around the church, life blooming in his footsteps. It isn't restoring the place to what it was, and in some cases it's actually hastening on the ruin, roots pushing through cracked stone, but it's a sort of destruction that lives and breathes and grows.
"You're a fool to keep fighting, Father. But that isn't a bad thing."
“You grow. You grow and you grow and you grow. Twisted and strange and refusing to die. You form new shoots where the world cuts you back. You learn to grow around your hollows and let life shelter in it. You push up through cobble and masonry and make it crumble as you reach for the sky. And you ready yourself to do it again when they cut you back.”
He pauses.
“Someday, you might find that you can’t grow back. When that happens, you let yourself rot. You feed the next thing that will grow in spite of them. If you know you have that power, they cannot destroy you in a way that matters.”
As Theodore speaks, he lowers to his knees in front of the body and clutches Powell’s cold, stiff, cruel hands in his. He had the words love and hate tattooed onto his fingers for some unfathomable reason; the one he clutches now reads love.
This is as he was conditioned to do: turn away from the living world to mire himself in guilt, in what was never really a failure at all.
“You make it sound so wonderful,” he sighs. “But I’m no plant, Spirit. I don’t know how to do that. I don’t—I don’t know if I can.”
He knows he’s speaking metaphorically, but the point us that he feels far more like a dead bush whose woody skeleton has been there for years more than he does a thing that can change. Not in a way that matters.
“No one knows what they can do, until they do it. But if you’re looking for proof, Father, look back at what you’ve done. Really, look back. Start digging back the soil, and you’ll more likely than not find you’ve got some sturdy roots.”
“Tell me, Father, truthfully, would you rather be capable of love and feel this agony, or never feel love at all and spare yourself from the pain?”
He clasps his hands in front of his forehead, elbows leaning on Powell's rotten chest, and takes a terribly deep sigh.
"Spirit," he murmurs, "you came for a confessional. The least I can do is be truthful."
...
"Pain has been the color of my whole life. When I was a child, the source of it was my parents and my brothers. I would hide from them in my sister's room, as the rest of us boys were packed into the other bedroom. I was always closer to her than the others. More like her. When we left for the ministry, it was as much because of our calling as it was to escape. Seminary was only a little better. The best decades of my life were spent as a hospital chaplain, ministering to the disabled and offering relief to the sick and dying. And after that was the war, and then that awful ship--if you know what it is like to break, you must know what it feels like to--to feel..."
He clutches at his ribcage.
"... My heart, my body, my mind--all of it shattered in that place. The Village, what Number 2 did, it was all taking advantage of that. The Korean War and the ship was all impersonal and senseless violence and all the aftershocks of that. Number 2 took the time to break you along where your cracks already were. And much of that was... was merely turning your eyes to truths about yourself that you were always too frightened to face. Oh, h-he carved up my brain and fried my mind. He made my senses into liars and my dreams into reality. He poisoned our food. He locked me all alone in all-white rooms. He invaded my home. He attempted to force me into idolatry and blasphemy every day. And yet, more than all of that... he showed me how desperately I have failed to be everything I tried to be. What I must be, as a servant of Him."
He lowers his hands. Turns to Powell and his bloody face and torn throat. The least he can do is confront, with both of his eyes, the mess he has created.
"The old Hawkeye and Powell... both of them were my fault, and I will live with that forever. I know now why I have never swayed a crowd. Why I have never held any gravitas or charisma, always being mistaken for absent even by those who loved me as a friend. I am not good. I am not a good priest, and I am not a good man. I have never been, and I cannot be. No good deed will change what I am in my nature: a viper. And I know where I am going when everything is done."
He scrubs at his eye and turns, just a little, eyes still cast resolutely downwards. Towards the vines and roots bursting from between the stone.
"And yet I cannot abandon love. Perhaps I've thought about it here and there, and sometimes it's held a lot of weight, but it's never been a lasting thought. It's never seemed appropriate. As a child, I loved my family. At the hospitals, I loved the patients and the staff. I loved the 4077th, and many of my fellow voyagers through the ship and the Village. How could I stop caring when we were all in such pain? What would that have helped? How could I answer His call if I stopped? Spirit, I've been in agony my whole life because I could not help but love at least one of my neighbors. And I will always happily be that fool.
"The problem is--I don't know what good it's doing anymore."
The spirit doesn't say anything at first. He kneels down, looking intently at the floor as he gathers pebbles of rubble, humming to himself as he does so. Then he starts writing in the dust, seemingly nonsense and certainly nothing that Mulcahy can glean any meaning from. Then he looks back at the fistfuls of stone, then back to his scribblings on the floor.
Finally, he stands up, facing Mulcahy. He tilts his head to one side, staring at the priest, and through him, and then straightens back up. Then he pushes the stones into Mulcahy's hand.
"You're the crowd. You're the adulteress. Only you've gotten it all confused. Somehow, you've made it just and righteous to cast the stones, so long as they're at yourself. Go on, then. Do it properly. Hurl these stones at yourself, with all your might. Not backwards, but forwards. Throw them overhand, and strike yourself in the temple. Surely you can do that, with righteous hated, if love has failed you."
He's asking the impossible, asking Mulcahy to make a rock circle the world. It would take more strength than everything the poor man could muster in his life.
Should Mulcahy try to do anything else, he'll suddenly find a feeling like overwhelming, petrifying dread locking up his body. This is the test. Throw the stone, with all your might, with all your hatred towards yourself.
He looks up at him in bewilderment. "Spirit, I don't..."
And then a horrible and blackened dread comes down on him; blackened, like that crashing and churned ocean, like the smoke that rose from the wasted city. Gritting his teeth and clenching the stone, he raises it over his head, and throws it.
Mulcahy is an athlete, but he's thinner than he once was, too. He throws another, and it makes it farther this time; he throws and it leaves the church doorway. He feels a determined anger welling up in him, and throws, but no stone makes it farther than a few yards beyond the church doors. He could do it, he thinks. He should be able to. He should be able to. He tries to will the dream to allow him and it won't. If the spirit had asked him to do anything but this, he could do it; he'd slice off his fingers, he'd dig open his ribcage, he'd pull out his teeth and cut out his own tongue; he'd vivisect himself for this anger, the kind of fury that feels like it should justify the world on its own terms, like the existence of it by itself can and should light up and devour entire forests. If the spirit had asked, he'd starve for this anger, the way he so often has. But he didn't; he asked him to throw stones, and no hatred can defy the world that's in front of him, which he is bound to.
He's sobbing as he throws another, fingernails scraping the cobblestones for the next pebble. I want to. And he can't. Never, not once, has this or will this ever work. It does nothing and means nothing, and--and all this wasted energy, for nothing, and he can't--he can't stop.
Sheogorath watches, even as Mulcahy's fingers grow cracked and bleeding, even as the priest grows dizzy and sick and a dark vignette creeps into the edges of his vision. Sheogorath watches until Mulcahy has no more stones to throw.
Then, he goes and gathers them up, and sets them just out of arms' reach, gathered in a pebbly little congregation.
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cw: desecration of a corpse, hellish torment (being eaten alive)
Date: 2024-11-14 04:11 pm (UTC)At least, it seems like just his body at first. He's being picked apart by what appear to be blue, slate-skinned imps, which are ravenously and gleefully stuffing chunks of him into their toothy maws. After a moment, a blue fire ignites behind his eyes, and he begins screaming, alive and awake but seemingly incapable of moving otherwise.
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Date: 2024-11-14 05:19 pm (UTC)And there is a wounded man.
He doesn’t understand what’s going on, but he’s convinced that either God or some other divine power has laid this purgatory on Powell, freezing him in this moment of most humiliation and at the same time ossifying Mulcahy’s most shameful act–he stares in horror at the imps, too familiar with the smell of blood and tear of sinew. And he claps his hands over his ears when he screams.
This is his shame: that he hesitates. That for a moment, two, three moments, he considers going away.
It isn’t guilt that moves him forward. It is deeply rooted instinct. Not a jerk reaction like a flinch or a scream, but a behavior as inherent to him as shepherding is for the working dog. Mulcahy rushes in to help and attempt to beat the imps away. “Get off of him! Off, all of you! Off!”
cw: religious bigotry, torture
Date: 2024-11-14 06:16 pm (UTC)“Miserable get of Sodom… you think I want your pity? Your mercy? Filthy companion of that whore of Babylon-“
The imps, seemingly emboldened, start inching back towards him, though they still eye Mulcahy warily.
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Date: 2024-11-14 06:33 pm (UTC)"Keep him out of this or I'll lay you out again, and you won't like how I do it!" he snaps, as he gently tries to ease his arms around the man to carry him from the altar. "You know as well as I do that it's only the luck of Providence that of all people to end up here, it should be me."
cw: religious bigotry, dismemberment
Date: 2024-11-14 06:48 pm (UTC)“I’d… rather die than accept the likes of you. There is no redemption for the sinner who attributes the works of God to Satan. The spawn of Sodom and all those who are sexually unclean shall not inherit- ggk!” He’s suddenly cut off as one of the imps suddenly leaps upon him and tears out his throat, holding the grisly trophy with an air of triumph, before the others start scrabbling to steal it.
“Nasty little things, Banekin,” comes a voice from behind Mulcahy.
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Date: 2024-11-15 03:01 am (UTC)He steps forward to start shooing them from the rest of the corpse when a voice issues from behind him. Blood freezing, he whirls around to see who's caught him here.
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Date: 2024-11-15 03:09 am (UTC)“You’re fighting a losing battle, Father Mulcahy.”
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Date: 2024-11-15 12:05 pm (UTC)How? This is—he’s sitting there like he expected him. Like he’s comfortable. Like…
A feeling, freezing cold and prickly and horrifyingly familiar, crawls up his nerves.
“That has never stopped me,” he says warily. “You know these things, Theodore?”
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Date: 2024-11-15 12:13 pm (UTC)“I suppose what I’m asking is, why are you trying so hard to keep him from what he wants?”
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Date: 2024-11-15 12:35 pm (UTC)It’s just Theodore. He knows and likes the man, and yet—and yet something feels so deeply wrong. Obviously there’s the inexplicable presence of Powell and these imps and the church and the fire, but there’s—there’s horrible and impossible such that either he’s been beset by devils or he’s dreaming… and then there’s another underlayer, a mysterious off-ness that he doesn’t understand. And he can’t stand it.
“Because what he wants is denying himself his peace,” Mulcahy tries sternly. “And no man should have to suffer forever like that. How are you here?”
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Date: 2024-11-15 01:46 pm (UTC)Tap.
“I’m afraid you’d have to tear through a whole army to get through to him. An unenviable task. Tell me, Father, is he not consumed by hatred?”
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Date: 2024-11-16 11:03 pm (UTC)His gaze turns bitter and suspicious. “Of course he is. Should that mean that I abandon him?”
(It’s an ugly and thankless duty, to care for people in spite of their tireless hatred for others. It’s just the thing for a priest to do.
He’s so tired.)
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Date: 2024-11-17 11:34 pm (UTC)He gestures to the implike things, which are keeping their distance now, seeming uncertain in their actions.
"Banekin hail from a realm that, at its core, is Domination-as-Consuming, Hope-Crushing, Forever-Chained. Daedra are... how might you say? Embodiments. His own hatred, his constant companions, are quite literally eating him alive when he no longer has what he needs to lord over his surroundings. That's quite typical, of those that seek out ol' Molag for power. The promise of being powerless under someone else, so long as you can dominate everything else in turn, is quite appealing when you don't think too much about it. After all, most mortals realize they're inevitably under someone else's heel- isn't it just a matter of survival and practicality, to make sure you end up as close to the top of the heap as possible?"
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Date: 2024-11-18 06:59 am (UTC)That stinging iciness in his nerves doesn't go away, but this... is different. It's the shallowest compensation.
...
"How are you here?" He wants to know what kind of game he's expected to play before he plays it. This, before he answers any questions, before the man tries to pull a confessional from someone whose most terrible mistake he can clearly already see. "For that matter, what is here?
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Date: 2024-11-18 06:39 pm (UTC)He walks over to a nearby candle, snuffing out the icy flame and seeming to conjure up a new one that glows with a proper warmth. The orange hues of comfort and safety begin to radiate from it, but there’s a distortedness to it. The edges of the world are too sharp, too deep, like heavy strokes of an oil painting, and the colors are a little too bright.
“You don’t trust any of this,” he remarks, tone neutral, as he scoops up a piece of broken stained glass. It turns into a butterfly and takes to the air.
“Probably best that you don’t. I had a dream recently that kept folding in and in and in on itself, and by the morning I had folded myself into such a tight knot.”
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Date: 2024-11-22 04:59 am (UTC)"Is that so...?" He still doesn't deign to get closer, but that butterfly is ever such a familiar sight.
"W-well... you dream as well, then? Are... are they often good dreams?"
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Date: 2024-11-22 03:14 pm (UTC)He walks around the church, life blooming in his footsteps. It isn't restoring the place to what it was, and in some cases it's actually hastening on the ruin, roots pushing through cracked stone, but it's a sort of destruction that lives and breathes and grows.
"You're a fool to keep fighting, Father. But that isn't a bad thing."
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Date: 2024-11-24 11:39 am (UTC)In a small voice: “Then how do you come back from being broken?”
And as he does, he turns around to look back at the body.
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Date: 2024-11-24 04:26 pm (UTC)He pauses.
“Someday, you might find that you can’t grow back. When that happens, you let yourself rot. You feed the next thing that will grow in spite of them. If you know you have that power, they cannot destroy you in a way that matters.”
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Date: 2024-11-28 12:08 am (UTC)This is as he was conditioned to do: turn away from the living world to mire himself in guilt, in what was never really a failure at all.
“You make it sound so wonderful,” he sighs. “But I’m no plant, Spirit. I don’t know how to do that. I don’t—I don’t know if I can.”
He knows he’s speaking metaphorically, but the point us that he feels far more like a dead bush whose woody skeleton has been there for years more than he does a thing that can change. Not in a way that matters.
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Date: 2024-11-28 09:07 pm (UTC)“Tell me, Father, truthfully, would you rather be capable of love and feel this agony, or never feel love at all and spare yourself from the pain?”
cw implied child abuse, inpatient psychiatric stuff and medical & religious abuse, injury/gore ment
Date: 2024-11-29 08:36 am (UTC)He clasps his hands in front of his forehead, elbows leaning on Powell's rotten chest, and takes a terribly deep sigh.
"Spirit," he murmurs, "you came for a confessional. The least I can do is be truthful."
...
"Pain has been the color of my whole life. When I was a child, the source of it was my parents and my brothers. I would hide from them in my sister's room, as the rest of us boys were packed into the other bedroom. I was always closer to her than the others. More like her. When we left for the ministry, it was as much because of our calling as it was to escape. Seminary was only a little better. The best decades of my life were spent as a hospital chaplain, ministering to the disabled and offering relief to the sick and dying. And after that was the war, and then that awful ship--if you know what it is like to break, you must know what it feels like to--to feel..."
He clutches at his ribcage.
"... My heart, my body, my mind--all of it shattered in that place. The Village, what Number 2 did, it was all taking advantage of that. The Korean War and the ship was all impersonal and senseless violence and all the aftershocks of that. Number 2 took the time to break you along where your cracks already were. And much of that was... was merely turning your eyes to truths about yourself that you were always too frightened to face. Oh, h-he carved up my brain and fried my mind. He made my senses into liars and my dreams into reality. He poisoned our food. He locked me all alone in all-white rooms. He invaded my home. He attempted to force me into idolatry and blasphemy every day. And yet, more than all of that... he showed me how desperately I have failed to be everything I tried to be. What I must be, as a servant of Him."
He lowers his hands. Turns to Powell and his bloody face and torn throat. The least he can do is confront, with both of his eyes, the mess he has created.
"The old Hawkeye and Powell... both of them were my fault, and I will live with that forever. I know now why I have never swayed a crowd. Why I have never held any gravitas or charisma, always being mistaken for absent even by those who loved me as a friend. I am not good. I am not a good priest, and I am not a good man. I have never been, and I cannot be. No good deed will change what I am in my nature: a viper. And I know where I am going when everything is done."
He scrubs at his eye and turns, just a little, eyes still cast resolutely downwards. Towards the vines and roots bursting from between the stone.
"And yet I cannot abandon love. Perhaps I've thought about it here and there, and sometimes it's held a lot of weight, but it's never been a lasting thought. It's never seemed appropriate. As a child, I loved my family. At the hospitals, I loved the patients and the staff. I loved the 4077th, and many of my fellow voyagers through the ship and the Village. How could I stop caring when we were all in such pain? What would that have helped? How could I answer His call if I stopped? Spirit, I've been in agony my whole life because I could not help but love at least one of my neighbors. And I will always happily be that fool.
"The problem is--I don't know what good it's doing anymore."
cw: religious discussion
Date: 2024-12-02 03:15 am (UTC)Finally, he stands up, facing Mulcahy. He tilts his head to one side, staring at the priest, and through him, and then straightens back up. Then he pushes the stones into Mulcahy's hand.
"You're the crowd. You're the adulteress. Only you've gotten it all confused. Somehow, you've made it just and righteous to cast the stones, so long as they're at yourself. Go on, then. Do it properly. Hurl these stones at yourself, with all your might. Not backwards, but forwards. Throw them overhand, and strike yourself in the temple. Surely you can do that, with righteous hated, if love has failed you."
He's asking the impossible, asking Mulcahy to make a rock circle the world. It would take more strength than everything the poor man could muster in his life.
Should Mulcahy try to do anything else, he'll suddenly find a feeling like overwhelming, petrifying dread locking up his body. This is the test. Throw the stone, with all your might, with all your hatred towards yourself.
cw mentions of self harm, mutilation, gore, disordered eating
Date: 2024-12-02 05:03 am (UTC)And then a horrible and blackened dread comes down on him; blackened, like that crashing and churned ocean, like the smoke that rose from the wasted city. Gritting his teeth and clenching the stone, he raises it over his head, and throws it.
Mulcahy is an athlete, but he's thinner than he once was, too. He throws another, and it makes it farther this time; he throws and it leaves the church doorway. He feels a determined anger welling up in him, and throws, but no stone makes it farther than a few yards beyond the church doors. He could do it, he thinks. He should be able to. He should be able to. He tries to will the dream to allow him and it won't. If the spirit had asked him to do anything but this, he could do it; he'd slice off his fingers, he'd dig open his ribcage, he'd pull out his teeth and cut out his own tongue; he'd vivisect himself for this anger, the kind of fury that feels like it should justify the world on its own terms, like the existence of it by itself can and should light up and devour entire forests. If the spirit had asked, he'd starve for this anger, the way he so often has. But he didn't; he asked him to throw stones, and no hatred can defy the world that's in front of him, which he is bound to.
He's sobbing as he throws another, fingernails scraping the cobblestones for the next pebble. I want to. And he can't. Never, not once, has this or will this ever work. It does nothing and means nothing, and--and all this wasted energy, for nothing, and he can't--he can't stop.
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Date: 2024-12-04 05:34 pm (UTC)Then, he goes and gathers them up, and sets them just out of arms' reach, gathered in a pebbly little congregation.
Sheogorath watches Mulcahy, silently, like a cat.
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